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[__ Prayer __] my probation situation...

Christ_empowered

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OK. So I was abused by shrinks at age 20 and 23. I filed a medical board complaint against 1 shrink. Then, I emailed her about my problems with my treatment, etc. This was before I became a Christian.

So, she filed charges. First a minor misdemeanor. Then a felony was added. My dad got me a good attorney. I almost didn't get bonded out. The felony was dismissed, and I pled guilty to a serious misdemeanor.

OK. So, the initial deal was 18 months probation, which in this state usually= 9 months to 1 year probation. My ex-shrink read off a 2 page statement in court, so I got sentenced to 3 years in prison, suspended to 5 years probation. Basically, if I mess up badly, I'll go to (minimum security) prison for over 2 years.

Anyway, I've been on probation for just over 1 year now. I became a Christian after the charges were filed. I know, another jailhouse Christian, lol. I'd gone to Teen Challenge and what not...I think it was a mix of character defects, pride, and, honestly, brain damage that kept the Truth from sinking in.

My probation officer seems nice enough. She put in the paperwork for early termination. Predictably, the ex-shrink is dead set against it and said I should not be released from probation one day early. So...yeah. Almost 4 years probation left, in that case.

I'm not upset that I'm not getting early discharge, but my Probation officer seemed angry with me, so I'm wondering what my ex-shrink had to say. I'm worried she may give me a hard time.

Also, if I'm on probation for 4 more years, then I'm pretty much staying here. Not just this state, but this county, and probably right here, with my parents, God willing. Not the worst deal ever (they're very loving and supportive), but...

...people around here despise me. I mean, they hate me, say all kinds of nasty stuff about me, blah blah blah. I wasn't a good person back then. Narcissistic teenager, so on and so forth.

I guess as long as I stay out of trouble (I don't drink or do drugs) and pay my monthly fee, probation shouldn't be a big deal. I'm hoping so, anyway. I'm praying so, actually.

Ugh. OK...time to count blessings...Liberty University, loving family, forgiveness, physical health, restored intelligence (not super genuis, but I'm no longer stupid), etc. Even my hair grew back.

I don't know why I'm posting this. Maybe because I got my hopes up?
 
The take-away I have from what you have written, Christ_empowered : Our Lord wants you to stay put where you are for a while. Perhaps it is because He plans to use you & your example to help your mom or dad...or both. Perhaps it is to use you to bring your neighbors into His family. I have no idea what He has in mind, but it is obvious He wants you to stay at home, continue your education, and continue to study scripture to become closer to Him.
 
No idea why your probation officer might seem angry, they could have had a bad day too, you really don't know.
I am so glad you are in the family. Sound advice here.
 
Father, i thank You for Christ_empowered. I thank You for Your favor that goes before them! I thank You that they walk in Your forgiveness and You Love and that You are restoring them to where You want them. Thank You for being the potter to rework and mend the broken spots of this beautiful clay pot. Thank You that You have so Wonderfully created Christ_empowered and are truly teaching them to trust You and be led by You. I thank You that as they commit all of their life, hopes, dreams, and heart to You that You will cause their thoughts to line up with Your Word so that all their plans will be established and succeed! Thank You for giving them purpose and direction with You guidance. And thank You that this is one of Your sheep that You so carefully and Wonderfully tend to! In Jesus Name, Amen
 
So sorry things didn't go as you hoped. It's tough, but as Air Dancer said, it looks like the Lord's plan is for you to stay where you are. Just be sure that God is with you, even as He was with Shadrech, Mishek and Abednigo in the fiery furnace, and he will bring you safe through it. Will the probation be reviewed again later?
 
If she's adamantly opposed to early termination, there's apparently no way around that, even with a good attorney. So...yeah...5 years.
 
Christ_empowered said:
OK. So I was abused by shrinks at age 20 and 23. I filed a medical board complaint against 1 shrink. Then, I emailed her about my problems with my treatment, etc. This was before I became a Christian.

So, she filed charges. First a minor misdemeanor. Then a felony was added. My dad got me a good attorney. I almost didn't get bonded out. The felony was dismissed, and I pled guilty to a serious misdemeanor.

OK. So, the initial deal was 18 months probation, which in this state usually= 9 months to 1 year probation. My ex-shrink read off a 2 page statement in court, so I got sentenced to 3 years in prison, suspended to 5 years probation. Basically, if I mess up badly, I'll go to (minimum security) prison for over 2 years.


Anyway, I've been on probation for just over 1 year now. I became a Christian after the charges were filed. I know, another jailhouse Christian, lol. I'd gone to Teen Challenge and what not...I think it was a mix of character defects, pride, and, honestly, brain damage that kept the Truth from sinking in.

My probation officer seems nice enough. She put in the paperwork for early termination. Predictably, the ex-shrink is dead set against it and said I should not be released from probation one day early. So...yeah. Almost 4 years probation left, in that case.

I'm not upset that I'm not getting early discharge, but my Probation officer seemed angry with me, so I'm wondering what my ex-shrink had to say. I'm worried she may give me a hard time.

Also, if I'm on probation for 4 more years, then I'm pretty much staying here. Not just this state, but this county, and probably right here, with my parents, God willing. Not the worst deal ever (they're very loving and supportive), but...

...people around here despise me. I mean, they hate me, say all kinds of nasty stuff about me, blah blah blah. I wasn't a good person back then. Narcissistic teenager, so on and so forth.

I guess as long as I stay out of trouble (I don't drink or do drugs) and pay my monthly fee, probation shouldn't be a big deal. I'm hoping so, anyway. I'm praying so, actually.

Ugh. OK...time to count blessings...Liberty University, loving family, forgiveness, physical health, restored intelligence (not super genuis, but I'm no longer stupid), etc. Even my hair grew back.

I don't know why I'm posting this. Maybe because I got my hopes up?
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God is with you and He is helping you. Soon you will see Gods favor in your life through various ways. He sees your pain and knows your heart. Pray for and bless those who treat you badly without cause. Take it to God in prayer and let Him strengthen you. Let these people see Gods love and light through your heart. For you have been chosen by Him and we have been told in Gods word to walk in His ways and His love. Through these trials and storms... God is faithful and will use your story for His glory. He is right there by your side. Be ever so blessed..
 
I just spoke to my (thankfully, Christian) counselor today about all this. He thinks my ex-shrink is making a huge issue out of something that could have been handled w/o so much drama and trauma (and legal expenses, for my parents). Turns out...she never liked me, anyway, and her intial dislike seems to have grown into near hatred. Lucky me.

I do need to trust The Lord more. I think I'm always afraid that if I say "I pray for your perfect will for my life," then something terrible will happen. I know, that's crazy. I don't know if its because I secretly think I'm still under God's judgment and I deserve more suffering, or if its that I still think of God as an angry, pagan tyrant to some extent, or...I dunno.

4 more years of fairly easy, breezy probation w/ my parents' ongoing support really isn't going to be so terrible. I obey the laws (even the speed limit), I get along well with people, I'm doing my school work at Liberty, etc. etc. Besides, nobody's entitled to early discharge from probation, anyway, so its not as if I've lost anything...I just have to keep on keepin on for the next 4 years.
 
Brother CE, you have been God’s work in progress that He has not failed, and in Gen 18:25 we read “Shall not the Judge of all the earth do right?” When God received you as His son to Himself there is no shame in Him as to Who He judged in your stead. When God sees you He sees Jesus’ blood shed, you delivered to His kingdom as an overcomer through the faith He actually gave you (Rom 12:3 & 1 Jn 5:4), and as an inheritor of His grace; the gift of God which is eternal life (Rom 6:23). Wherever, and what purposes He determines for and in our lives it is always for our good (Rom 8:28) and we can trust Him.
 
Well said, Eugene. CE - whenever you are tempted to see God as an unforgiving tyrant, remember that Jesus is the perfect image of God. The personality that we read about in the Gospels - compassionate, caring and wise - that is the personality of our God. Learn more of Jesus, and you will know the true personality of God. He can be trusted always, in all situations. Jesus never turned away anyone who came to him; he cared deeply for the troubles of others, he was quick to forgive those who were repentant.

John 14:8 onwards: "Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.”
Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father""
 
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