I didn't mean to yours and anyones heart..and for that I am sorry. I haven't heard of him before, I'll consider looking him up. Yes I think that before I can believe in god I will need some good solid evidence, and if he can reveal himself to me that would be perfect. To answer a question if I've heard the song Amazing Grace, yes I have, Ashton Nytes version of it. Sorry but I love that mans music it helps me when I'm depressed because I can relate to some his stuff.. Some part of me wants to believe in god and what he can do but at the same time I don't know..
The fact that you are apologizing continues to show me what kind of a tender heart you have. Please, you have no need to apologize. My heart hurts for you because I have been were you have been, and the only healing that came to me came from the Love of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Ask Him to reveal Himself to you. The heart of God cannot resist hearts such as yours...