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Still swirling around me, LOL.
I don't get it. People are still yelling about "warrants," "jail," "prison," etc. Thing is...I have -1- conviction on my record. Its a serious ("Class A") misdemeanor, related to stuff w/ a former psychiatrist (yeah...I'm a "trouble maker," LOL). When that went down, my parents were able+willing to hire a good lawyer, so ended up w/ a plea bargain, probation. I was released from probation 2 whole years early, because of good behavior.
So...when I look at God's work in my life, I'm astounded. I mean...I was -wretched-, no doubt about it. Now, I"m definitely a work-in-progress, but...its amazing how much progress I've made, by God's grace, in the 5 years since I got saved.
Now, when I go out in the yard, people wil taunt me with stuff like "yeah, congratulate Dr.(former shrink)!!!" and "he better get ready for prison" and "when are they serving the warrant?"
Of course, people around here think of me as "trailer trash" and/or "working class loser," so they probably don't think I had a lawyer when everything hit the fan. The only people I've talked to about it are the mental health people treating me and some friendly acquaintances from back in the day who keep in touch with me.
Ugh. Social class issues are a big factor in my situation. Basically, when I was put in a private, for profit mental hospital at age 20, my parents were (to quote a former counselor) "rinky dink middle class," but they had good insurance. Now, mama's retired, dad's still going strong in his job, and they're more upper middle class/"comfortable"/whatever. But..its a small, southern town; you're a "working class loser" at age 13, that's pretty much all they'll ever let you be (trust me on that one).
OK. Basically, I once again and asking for prayer, for my family and for me, please. I've been praying for "The perfect love that casteth out all fear" and forgivness for my spirit of timidity, and The Lord has brought me a long, long way. I don't get nearly as fearful and straight up paranoid as I once did, because of His work in my heart+life. I'm thankful.
Thanks.
I don't get it. People are still yelling about "warrants," "jail," "prison," etc. Thing is...I have -1- conviction on my record. Its a serious ("Class A") misdemeanor, related to stuff w/ a former psychiatrist (yeah...I'm a "trouble maker," LOL). When that went down, my parents were able+willing to hire a good lawyer, so ended up w/ a plea bargain, probation. I was released from probation 2 whole years early, because of good behavior.
So...when I look at God's work in my life, I'm astounded. I mean...I was -wretched-, no doubt about it. Now, I"m definitely a work-in-progress, but...its amazing how much progress I've made, by God's grace, in the 5 years since I got saved.
Now, when I go out in the yard, people wil taunt me with stuff like "yeah, congratulate Dr.(former shrink)!!!" and "he better get ready for prison" and "when are they serving the warrant?"
Of course, people around here think of me as "trailer trash" and/or "working class loser," so they probably don't think I had a lawyer when everything hit the fan. The only people I've talked to about it are the mental health people treating me and some friendly acquaintances from back in the day who keep in touch with me.
Ugh. Social class issues are a big factor in my situation. Basically, when I was put in a private, for profit mental hospital at age 20, my parents were (to quote a former counselor) "rinky dink middle class," but they had good insurance. Now, mama's retired, dad's still going strong in his job, and they're more upper middle class/"comfortable"/whatever. But..its a small, southern town; you're a "working class loser" at age 13, that's pretty much all they'll ever let you be (trust me on that one).
OK. Basically, I once again and asking for prayer, for my family and for me, please. I've been praying for "The perfect love that casteth out all fear" and forgivness for my spirit of timidity, and The Lord has brought me a long, long way. I don't get nearly as fearful and straight up paranoid as I once did, because of His work in my heart+life. I'm thankful.
Thanks.
