[__ Prayer __] Struggling

[Norman]

I'm having a heck of a time dealing with my many physical afflictions. It's having a detrimental effect on my relationships. Thanks.

 

[Truthfrees]

praying

 

[rhomphaeam]

I'm having a heck of a time dealing with my many physical afflictions. It's having a detrimental effect on my relationships. Thanks.

What physical afflictions?

 

[Norman]

Physical pain from untreatable Lupus, bilateral sciatica, and chronic migraines are my major issues. I suspect I have fibromyalgia and hyperalgesia.

 

[rhomphaeam]

Physical pain from untreatable Lupus, bilateral sciatica, and chronic migraines are my major issues. I suspect I have fibromyalgia and hyperalgesia.

How much is deemed historical environmental with epigenetic causality from your father and how much is linked to psychological predications out of your own environment both in childhood and in your less than admirable younger adult life? Just asking brother!

 

[Norman]

I injured my back at work...it seems that another employee didn't like the fact that I objected to the fact that he was using his seniority to take my work tools instead of walking across the warehouse to get his.
In hindsight I see he set me up to get injured. I learned afterward the meaning of a hand-drawn cartoon in the office. It was about how this worker was known to set up and injure new employees if he didn't like them.
Years later, at a church conference, a prophetic minister drew this out of me to expose that I hadn't forgiven the person. I then forgave them.
While running a production line years later, I was exposed to long-term silica dust inhalation. Silica is the #1 chemical cause of Lupus. The company insisted the mask they provided me with was good, as it was government-approved. Tasting the silica through the mask, I provided myself with a better mask. Obviously not good enough.
Migraines run on my mother's side. Heart disease runs on my father's, though freemason involvement may have invoke the knife-through-the-heart curse. My siblings and I haven't had any problems with it. I've dealt with ancestral curses.
We all believe in Yeshua.

 

[rhomphaeam]

I injured my back at work...it seems that another employee didn't like the fact that I objected to the fact that he was using his seniority to take my work tools instead of walking across the warehouse to get his.
In hindsight I see he set me up to get injured. I learned afterward the meaning of a hand-drawn cartoon in the office. It was about how this worker was known to set up and injure new employees if he didn't like them.
Years later, at a church conference, a prophetic minister drew this out of me to expose that I hadn't forgiven the person. I then forgave them.
While running a production line years later, I was exposed to long-term silica dust inhalation. Silica is the #1 chemical cause of Lupus. The company insisted the mask they provided me with was good, as it was government-approved. Tasting the silica through the mask, I provided myself with a better mask. Obviously not good enough.
Migraines run on my mother's side. Heart disease runs on my father's, though freemason involvement may have invoke the knife-through-the-heart curse. My siblings and I haven't had any problems with it. I've dealt with ancestral curses.
We all believe in Yeshua.

Well injuring your back at work could explain one branch of sciatica but not bilateral sciatica. Both ends of the sciatic nerve are pinched when bilateral sciatica is symptomatically evidenced (both legs). The lumbar injury could account for one of them not both. Bilateral sciatica is very rare.

Has your Doctor discounted Cauda Equina Syndrome?

Lupus is an autoimmune disorder chiefly untreatable. It is also extremely rare in men.

What strikes me about all of the symptoms you raise as a seeming diagnostic medal - including your own suspicions regarding fibromyalgia and hyperalgesia, is that they are all little understood and none of them can be precisely ascribed, as to causality - with the exception to sciatica which can be attributed to numerous physical issues such as calcification &c. Your back injury is a causal link - yet so can any severe trauma to the body be, including neurological stress triggered by environmental exposure.

Cardio vascular pathologies can cause severe stress and therefore tiggers, but I am assuming you have no known cardio vascular conditions. Migraine usually events in mid twenties and often subsides in 60"s.

Coming back to Lupus - your reference to airborne silica is credible as a litigant claim but not a proven medical or scientific fact. I only make that point because litigant evidence in civil compensation claims are predicated on the grounds of reasonable probability - and often do not constitute medical knowledge.

Do you have onset dates for any of these conditions with the exception of sciatica other than in your feet in that regard. which could have onset markers whereas the lumber damage would give rise to a definite escalation of nerve damage symptoms. Did both legs express simultaneously or individually over time after the injury during onset?

I'll share about the spiritual things you raised in a separate post once I can see how to estimate the physical realities. I am sure you must know that psychological issues also play a part - and finally brother, what ails your son - speaking of prophetic meanings relative to these things?

 

[Norman]

I know bilateral sciatica is rare. After many years of degenerative disc disease, one day I picked up an about 20 lb. box. Though I lifted with my knees and not my back, I twisted as I stood and I felt a stabbing pain where I have a disc injury. For an instant I lost control of myself and fell to the ground. I've had little sensation but numbness and pain in my feet since.
The precise timing and job function I had when I got Lupus tells me that I got it from silica. Along with what 2 rheumatologists told me after several months of testing. Only 10% of Lupus patients are men. I also seemed to have contracted Epstein-Barr virus at the same time.
My doctors said that I was half-way dead. The only time I've felt well since was when I was on HCQ, however, since the pandemic, I can't get it prescribed.
I don't get into my children much online. Only what's already publicly known.
I have Lupus or a similar auto-immune disease, and I have bilateral sciatica.
As far as what we talked about before, you confirmed what I already knew.

 

[rhomphaeam]

I know bilateral sciatica is rare. After many years of degenerative disc disease, one day I picked up an about 20 lb. box. Though I lifted with my knees and not my back, I twisted as I stood and I felt a stabbing pain where I have a disc injury. For an instant I lost control of myself and fell to the ground. I've had little sensation but numbness and pain in my feet since.
The precise timing and job function I had when I got Lupus tells me that I got it from silica. Along with what 2 rheumatologists told me after several months of testing. Only 10% of Lupus patients are men. I also seemed to have contracted Epstein-Barr virus at the same time.
My doctors said that I was half-way dead. The only time I've felt well since was when I was on HCQ, however, since the pandemic, I can't get it prescribed.
I don't get into my children much online. Only what's already publicly known.
I have Lupus or a similar auto-immune disease, and I have bilateral sciatica.
As far as what we talked about before, you confirmed what I already knew.

So the claim to the Epstein-Bar Virus is not a glandular fever presentation but rather an implication to an associated DNA attached Human gammaherpesvirus 4. It is testable so I assume you have pathogens in your blood stream that uphold that belief. The Malarial HCQ has been withdrawn due to the Covid Virus and possible complications arising from that which would mask treatment of Covid. Pretty appalling given your history. Some Doctors will still prescribe it - but seemingly not yours.

I am not sure why your Doctors said that you were half way dead. That seems like a risk analysis and not a medical prognosis. I tend to ignore what most Doctors tell me when I am advocating for patients and always arrest their attention by advising my clients that due to their mental capacity they can't be precisely prosecuted - just as we enter the surgery and into the hearing of the Doctor. That tends to work. If not that then I express a more severe account of my (made up) Schizophrenic genetic predictions with environmental sadism and paranoia and declare triumphantly that whilst walking down the street and seeing a man in the distance I can never be sure if I will attack him or he me. The Doctor always seems to express a simpering sense of optimism at that point and congratulate me for having the presence of mind to not attack anyone whilst settling back in his chair nervously. Either way Doctors need to be arrested and taken out of the oft risk assessment mindset that their professional bodies require of them and back into simple medicine.

As to your son - I understand that point.

So given that you appear to have a formalised (settled) understanding of your physical health and given that you have expressed at least a measured sense of spiritual curses am I to take it that by asking for prayer you are asking for a removal of the consequences of psychological disturbance between relational parties (friends, brethren siblings) &c.

If that is the case then how do you suppose the Lord will do that, brother?

When I minister to brethren in the churches I always explore physical realities first because many of our problems stem from improperly diagnosed conditions that give rise to psychological issues. Believe it or not most of the conditions you have expressed are increasingly common across all general practise with an eventual diagnosis being made to brethren in all walks of life that leaves them with a seeming absolute - with no absolute medical release.

This linked post may give you a sense of why I have felt led to post to your own comments, brother.

Link. #57

I also made this comment in another prayer request to yourself:

If you want to begin to understand why these things matter beyond simply showing compassion then read Galatians 5:20-21. Then ask yourself why witchcraft or sorcery is a fruit of the flesh. You don't need a devil when you have a chemical factory working in your weakened body to make you a devil. Neither do we need to be afraid of anything.

Speaking and confirming things about Israel in a prophetic meaning is a simple matter. You either are or you are not a prophet. What is much more difficult is to explain why the churches in so many places are in such a terrible mess. Perhaps more pertinently, why so many believers have now an almost total inability to hold to spiritual realities that deliver them from all obstruction to our walks and our relationships with one another. Its a very difficult subject because it can so easily come across as a form of criticism when we begin to speak of our flesh and for a while at least take our eyes away from the ambitions of Satan - and yet not the flesh, as though digging into it will uncover anything at all other than the flesh - rather to settle what the flesh really is. God Bless you brother.

 

[Norman]

You've been through the mill...I'm sorry you had to go through that...it must've been tough!
My experience with HCQ was that it put me in remission without any side effects whatsoever. It may be the safest drug I've ever taken. I don't think my doc's permitted to prescribe it. The conditions are so confused. He's in an awkward spot. It's political.
I asked the doc how close I was to dying, as it seemed to me that I was definitely on my way...I've never been so sick as when I first got ill with Lupus.
One liver enzyme was normally 39...it was around 650. The other was normally 41...it was around 850. I couldn't walk up a whole flight of stairs. I've never been the same in 20 years. Though HCQ made a huge difference.
At the time, I thought that the Lord had healed me. As I was desperate, I was praying some word faith prayer someone had given me. HCQ was just one of many pills I was on at the time.
Either I am or I'm not...as with everything else, I leave that in the Lord's hands. I'm the kind of guy that likes sitting in the back. Bless you too, man!

 

[rhomphaeam]

You've been through the mill...I'm sorry you had to go through that...it must've been tough!
My experience with HCQ was that it put me in remission without any side effects whatsoever. It may be the safest drug I've ever taken. I don't think my doc's permitted to prescribe it. The conditions are so confused. He's in an awkward spot. It's political.
I asked the doc how close I was to dying, as it seemed to me that I was definitely on my way...I've never been so sick as when I first got ill with Lupus.
One liver enzyme was normally 39...it was around 650. The other was normally 41...it was around 850. I couldn't walk up a whole flight of stairs. I've never been the same in 20 years. Though HCQ made a huge difference.
At the time, I thought that the Lord had healed me. As I was desperate, I was praying some word faith prayer someone had given me. HCQ was just one of many pills I was on at the time.
Either I am or I'm not...as with everything else, I leave that in the Lord's hands. I'm the kind of guy that likes sitting in the back. Bless you too, man!

After all of that then I will pray that the Lord heals you brother, as no doubt would anyone with a modicum of hope in the Lord. Thanks for the fellowship. I do like your quiet manner of avoiding some questions - its a real skill. :neutral:neutral:neutral:neutral

Some brethren just smack me in the proverbial mouth. So I just smile and ask again.

 

[Norman]

I'd ask that you'd pray that I could cope better...and at any time the Lord would heal me, for sure!
Sometimes I flail and thrash around and others pay the price.

 

[Norman]

What you perceive as my quiet manner of avoiding questions is actually the combination of an oxygen-deprivation brain injury, combined with the lingering effects of a rare adverse anti-vertigo drug reaction that is classified as a brain disease (which put me in a coma, stopped my heart 3 times, and as they were unable to restart it and were filling out my time of death, it started itself (though I believe it was Yeshua who started it, as I had just visited Him in the New Jerusalem)), make it difficult to once again relate my complex medical history.
Not a medal...a shield against the barrage of slings and arrows I face constantly. Like Trump, if I don't stand up for myself, I'd get buried. Though what I've faced pales into comparison to what he's had to endure.
I often forget where I'm talking.

 

[rhomphaeam]

What you perceive as my quiet manner of avoiding questions is actually the combination of an oxygen-deprivation brain injury, combined with the lingering effects of a rare adverse anti-vertigo drug reaction that is classified as a brain disease (which put me in a coma, stopped my heart 3 times, and as they were unable to restart it and were filling out my time of death, it started itself (though I believe it was Yeshua who started it, as I had just visited Him in the New Jerusalem)), make it difficult to once again relate my complex medical history.
Not a medal...a shield against the barrage of slings and arrows I face constantly. Like Trump, if I don't stand up for myself, I'd get buried. Though what I've faced pales into comparison to what he's had to endure.
I often forget where I'm talking.

But you can read brother and you can write. I am not being either harsh or slinging arrows. So no shield required with this man. What I referred to was a few times you had made express statements that had no challenging claims attached to them which you elected or else were prevented from responding to. I don't mind of course you must be free to write as you are able to write - I am simply being open and honest. Its the best way. Besides you don strike me as a brother who needs his hand holding.

Those express statements were not a patch on some of the things you have said and I have resisted speaking about them other than when you asked me an express question. That response of mine you took to be a confirmation of what you already knew. I could speak of being taken captive if I am found to being in agreement with that which I cannot agree with. Yet I would rather be taken prisoner than abuse a brother's faith. And so seeing as you now tell me that which would ordinarily infer neurological brain injury I am likely to be silent. Is that what you wish, brother?

 

[Norman]

I didn't mean you. I have this approach due to the slings and arrows of others. If anything, I wouldn't like to be thought of as avoiding questions. That is not me. Open, honest, direct...this I can get into. Otherwise, I might not understand what you're talking about.
If I could say one thing...You are obviously intelligent, but due to my condition, I can get confused at a certain point if you elaborate too much.
Holding my hand? I'm waiting on the Lord for a wife, and she can hold my hand. Besides, you're ugly and your mother dresses you funny! Lol

 

[rhomphaeam]

I didn't mean you. I have this approach due to the slings and arrows of others. If anything, I wouldn't like to be thought of as avoiding questions. That is not me. Open, honest, direct...this I can get into. Otherwise, I might not understand what you're talking about.
If I could say one thing...You are obviously intelligent, but due to my condition, I can get confused at a certain point if you elaborate too much.
Holding my hand? I'm waiting on the Lord for a wife, and she can hold my hand. Besides, you're ugly and your mother dresses you funny! Lol

Ha! Wonderful brother. My mother would be beaming if she read that. When you get that beauty of a wife lets hope she's smarter than you!

 

[Norman]

Ha! Wonderful brother. My mother would be beaming if she read that. When you get that beauty of a wife lets hope she's smarter than you!

Hey, I'll have you know that I only meet smart women! Lol

 

[Norman]

That's why I haven't had a kiss in years! Lol

 

[rhomphaeam]

That's why I haven't had a kiss in years! Lol

My wife tells me that when she first saw me standing outside of her church waiting to go into the city to evangelise on Good Friday 1885 her first though was "I'll never marry him." Two weeks later I asked another sister for advise on how to ask a sister in the church out. I then went to my intended wife not realising what she actually thought of me and asked her to the pictures. She told me that she would think about it in prayer and let me know. So six weeks later I prayed myself and asked the Father if He would give me this sister as my wife. The Father told me that if I asked her to marry me and she said yes, then I could marry her. Then He warned me that if she did agree He would hold me accountable for her life.

All I can tell you brother is that the man is the head of the woman - but the woman is the equal to the man. My wife had already been taken through Romans 6:6 and was already in the meaning of the cross crucified in Christ so well that nothing distracted her from always focusing on Christ - even a handsome critter like me.

When our first born son came along in such a broken state she simply cared for him and took no regard for herself. I was to some extent broken by it. It took over nine hours in each day just to get into my son enough food to stay alive. His cerebral palsy caused vomiting and so it was a continuous effort to replace what he lost.

My wife was astonishing and it took me years to fully understand just what a sacrifice she made to care for our son. Yet what we both learned out of that experience at that time was far more grievous than my son. The church simply vanished. In the following three years we were so isolated that we did not have a single visitor from the church. Then one evening in winter whilst sitting in darkness because I could not bear to do anything other than sit in silence due to our son choking and at risk of suffocation from being physically unable to react properly - I tuned to my wife and said that we had to begin to trust the Lord even if that meant our son going to be with Him. My wife obeyed what I said and we set about to restore our lives again.

Our wives are truly remarkable when out of a fear of God they can refuse to even look at a man in his natural estate before he asks for her hand in marriage and then obey him when she is his wife even though her son is utterly broken in mind and body. That example of my wife is the example of how we should all be with one another in the body of Christ. It is also why a misuse of authority in the churches by pastors and elders is going to bring down a terrible judgement of God in our day upon that number who will not repent and begin to serve the flocks in humility and love.

I truly pray - let the Lord raise up that woman to be your wife brother and to give you that kiss. But the Lord will hold you to account if she is a godly woman. Amen

 

[Norman]

I have...a stillness in me about it. I'll keep that.