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yup yup. me, yet again.
i'm 35. i'm labeled as 'severely mentally ill.' by God's grace, I came to know THE LORD 7 years ago, and I've been changed (in the process of being changed?) ever since. good thing, too...
I was wretched. that's neither here nor there...I've posted far too much on all that, anyway...but it was bad, in my case. the usual suspects (sin, satan, self, the world) combined to create...an obviously brain damaged, physically sickly, wretched individual, totally dependent upon my (kind, loving, gracious, long suffering) parents. and now?
well...a tad over 7 years into my walk with THE LORD, I'm physically remarkably healthy, all things considered. I do need to work out and drop a good bit of weight...I suspect a lot of that is from the psych prescription (most of them, from all classes, cause or contribute to weight gain, which can be considerable), plus...poverty. and...
now, I'm still poor, but my family is seeing to it that I don't live in real poverty. "genteel poverty," maybe, if one felt like waxing poetic on the situation. i cannot support myself (part psych, part stigma), but I live in a modest, nice place and...blah blah blah. I mean, I -am- thankful, I've just posted on all this way, way, way too much. and so...
I am surrounded by rumors and lies. "where's all THIS MONEY coming from?" I don't live lavishly or anything (trust me, far from it), but I don't live in real poverty, either. so there's that. and "weren't his parents supposed to be fired from ()?!?!" (apparently, there were several attempts to derail my parents' careers. By God's grace, mama's retired and dad's on his way out, voluntarily, into retirement...gradually...). and..
"he has FELONIES" (I don't. I actually did one of those legit national background checks on myself, and nothing. somehow, I even got rid of an old unpaid ticket) and "he's on a LIFETIME court ORDER!" (a court order is when a judge signs off on mental health forcing treatment on someone...I've miraculously been spared that...I take the prescription in my own place, fill it at my local pharmacy...normal people stuff, basically...), and...
OK, so ordinarily, the response would be 'shrug it off.' I'm getting better, by God's grace. 'fret not because of evil-doers,' after all. that and...'fear of man shall prove to be a snare.' yeah...true, that. thing is...
the lies are -vicious- and the lies are sometimes yelled -at- me, from where i cannot see the person or people (its a bunch of apt. buildings, so they can yell out from their patio and i won't see them, no big deal). today, i was headed out to go see my (loving, kind, long suffering) parents, and...
I heard a lady do one of those deep "you're not welcome here" coughs, and...I was leaving -my own place- . some man, I'm guessing he was with her, was babbling about stuff from my past...
ugh. it isn't that what they say is not likely or probable...had it not been for THE LORD intervening, I'd have at least 1 felony and I'd probably be in a state hospital, but...
-sigh- by God's grace, it isn't the -truth- of my situation, that's what I think is bothering me. that and...I was attacked, 12 years ago, during a time when I may have had late stage HIV/full-blown AIDS (how am I alive now? good question, especially since I've never been offered, much less received, proper treatment...), so...
blah. blah. I just don't want people getting the idea that they have some sort of 'right' to impose their nonsense on me, I think is also a part of my concern...its a practical, day to day life issue, too. blah.
ok. truth? apparently, I have a clean official background. voluntary, outpatient psych treatment. I'm healthy, no thanks to the medical establishment (LOL). and...
I despise -oppression- , not just in my life...but in anyone's. Christian, non-Christian...whatever...I"m not fond of oppression and torment and labels and lies. so, I think some of my principles are at work here, not that anyone in my community...speaks to me, or listens to me, or anything...except for my (again: most wonderful!) parents, of course.
and so...once again, I ask that you pray for my parents and me. as a side note: both of my parents have been burned by churches and the people in them, and I'd love for them to be blessed into a genuine, saving faith in Christ Jesus.
i'm 35. i'm labeled as 'severely mentally ill.' by God's grace, I came to know THE LORD 7 years ago, and I've been changed (in the process of being changed?) ever since. good thing, too...
I was wretched. that's neither here nor there...I've posted far too much on all that, anyway...but it was bad, in my case. the usual suspects (sin, satan, self, the world) combined to create...an obviously brain damaged, physically sickly, wretched individual, totally dependent upon my (kind, loving, gracious, long suffering) parents. and now?
well...a tad over 7 years into my walk with THE LORD, I'm physically remarkably healthy, all things considered. I do need to work out and drop a good bit of weight...I suspect a lot of that is from the psych prescription (most of them, from all classes, cause or contribute to weight gain, which can be considerable), plus...poverty. and...
now, I'm still poor, but my family is seeing to it that I don't live in real poverty. "genteel poverty," maybe, if one felt like waxing poetic on the situation. i cannot support myself (part psych, part stigma), but I live in a modest, nice place and...blah blah blah. I mean, I -am- thankful, I've just posted on all this way, way, way too much. and so...
I am surrounded by rumors and lies. "where's all THIS MONEY coming from?" I don't live lavishly or anything (trust me, far from it), but I don't live in real poverty, either. so there's that. and "weren't his parents supposed to be fired from ()?!?!" (apparently, there were several attempts to derail my parents' careers. By God's grace, mama's retired and dad's on his way out, voluntarily, into retirement...gradually...). and..
"he has FELONIES" (I don't. I actually did one of those legit national background checks on myself, and nothing. somehow, I even got rid of an old unpaid ticket) and "he's on a LIFETIME court ORDER!" (a court order is when a judge signs off on mental health forcing treatment on someone...I've miraculously been spared that...I take the prescription in my own place, fill it at my local pharmacy...normal people stuff, basically...), and...
OK, so ordinarily, the response would be 'shrug it off.' I'm getting better, by God's grace. 'fret not because of evil-doers,' after all. that and...'fear of man shall prove to be a snare.' yeah...true, that. thing is...
the lies are -vicious- and the lies are sometimes yelled -at- me, from where i cannot see the person or people (its a bunch of apt. buildings, so they can yell out from their patio and i won't see them, no big deal). today, i was headed out to go see my (loving, kind, long suffering) parents, and...
I heard a lady do one of those deep "you're not welcome here" coughs, and...I was leaving -my own place- . some man, I'm guessing he was with her, was babbling about stuff from my past...
ugh. it isn't that what they say is not likely or probable...had it not been for THE LORD intervening, I'd have at least 1 felony and I'd probably be in a state hospital, but...
-sigh- by God's grace, it isn't the -truth- of my situation, that's what I think is bothering me. that and...I was attacked, 12 years ago, during a time when I may have had late stage HIV/full-blown AIDS (how am I alive now? good question, especially since I've never been offered, much less received, proper treatment...), so...
blah. blah. I just don't want people getting the idea that they have some sort of 'right' to impose their nonsense on me, I think is also a part of my concern...its a practical, day to day life issue, too. blah.
ok. truth? apparently, I have a clean official background. voluntary, outpatient psych treatment. I'm healthy, no thanks to the medical establishment (LOL). and...
I despise -oppression- , not just in my life...but in anyone's. Christian, non-Christian...whatever...I"m not fond of oppression and torment and labels and lies. so, I think some of my principles are at work here, not that anyone in my community...speaks to me, or listens to me, or anything...except for my (again: most wonderful!) parents, of course.
and so...once again, I ask that you pray for my parents and me. as a side note: both of my parents have been burned by churches and the people in them, and I'd love for them to be blessed into a genuine, saving faith in Christ Jesus.
