Flavian Roman Dynasty created the Gospels which started as a satirical work as well as a pacification psychological operation.
Dude, your story is a satirical work. You sure you were saved 22 years ago? Because you sound like a confused college kid.
You some how find a book and all of a sudden the mysteries of life are opened up to you.
And before you get all "bibally" on me and tell me how reading the bible changed me or every other Christian on the planet, I'm going to have to stop you there and say, nahnt uh! I really don't like reading the bible and 90% of the christians who live and breath on the planet today didn't know what the bible said before they became Christian.
It's a fact sir/ma'am, that secularist change their mind over a life altering event and usually convert to Christianity over said life altering event. The bible had nothing to do with their transformation from secularist to Christian. The bible is for after you make the big leap, its a teaching tool on how to get closer to Jesus and most Christians don't read it until after they are a Christian. Some putz will probably pop in here and say, "I converted after reading the bible" but that doesn't mean that I'm wrong, it just means that that person is a 10%'er.
Most of your converts are people who have been dumped, lost loved ones, getting over a drug addiction or making an effort to improve their lives and on top of having to go through the troubles of losing a loved one or having a drug problem, they still have to be convinced that Christianity is best for them. People don't just randomly jump into Christianity unless they're totally not serious about it. People don't just randomly jump into anything unless they're totally not serious about it.
And you sound totally like you randomly jumped into some stuff after reading some books or book about some ancient roman crap.
Which doesn't make any sense.
Common sense would say, you're a complete idiot or you had motives before this book or books smothered your common sense and you became a secularist.
Relax, bruh. Jesus would be honest with you to.
And to be honest, I wanted to get in here some where that the Hebrews committed scripture to memory. They didn't write it down, it was passed on as spoken word. They didn't write any of it down until after the romans kicked them out of Israel in 70 A.D.
And when I say they committed it to memory, they spent their entire lives until adult hood and actually beyond, remembering what they were to pass on. They would wake up, remember stuff all day long, go to sleep and repeat the cycle the next day.
But when so many Jewish people died or committed suicide in 70 A.D., the survivors decided to write stuff down because they were running out of individuals who knew stuff.
I wanted to get that in because in a round about way, it seemed like what you wanted to discuss? or were you looking forward to someone discussing the books you read? I'm not reading the books.