Christ_empowered
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- Oct 23, 2010
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I am blessed, beyond measure. I'm not claiming to "deserve" any blessings any more than any other Christian, its just...wow. I have a modest, increasing moral life...close to my (loving, long suffering) parents, healthy, and...yeah. God is Good. God is Love.
Thing is...there seems to be more open, troubling contempt towards me here in my small city, which is near my parents' town (and my hometown).
A big box drugstore has a discount program...pay a small amount per month, get big savings. OK. So, I did the math in my head and the savings+ coupons on the card would = slightly less than WalMart prices for something I wanted. Good, especially since WalMart is so difficult to deal with, after 10-11 AM, anyway. so...in I go...
grab the item, go to self-check, and... "he's on a --court order-- ..." "he has a FELONY..." "his parents are NOT permitted to help him..."
ugh. I brushed it off, got the item, paid cash...had to wait for change, which was awkward in that context, but...yeah. out. done.
came back to my place, and some lady was yelling about "how we feel about you" and "felonies," and...yeah. :-( thankfully, a neighbor saw me on my way into my unit and said Hi. Small gesture, means a lot.
So...in Christ (over 9 years, now), I am provided with what I need for life and for godliness, plus way more than I can claim to deserve. Not that I live large (LOL), but...wow. wow. compared to what the world had for me (especially the mental health industry), this is...wow. --major act of God-- , possibly a miracle.
the taunting and such continue. I don't get it. My parents are so kind to me, now, and...its not just -stuff- , its...warmth and care and compassion and the expectation that I be (more) responsible, (more) adult, to whatever extent possible.
I'm getting taunted with junk from my (horrifying) attempts at college, years and years ago. I never knew...how much people hated me. Now, in Christ...
not flamboyantly gay, healthy, apparently a high IQ (estimate), average height (beats being short, prematurely aged, and flamboyantly gay...), -not- homely, -not- prematurely aged, and...
yeah. yeah. --frustrating--
please pray. people are openly obnoxious, the bullying is non stop. An HVAC man was out for my system a while back. I had the TV on. I heard people taunting, but I made it a point not to react. He went out on my patio, because he heard it and...
yeah. -that- bad. :-(
please pray. thanks.
Thing is...there seems to be more open, troubling contempt towards me here in my small city, which is near my parents' town (and my hometown).
A big box drugstore has a discount program...pay a small amount per month, get big savings. OK. So, I did the math in my head and the savings+ coupons on the card would = slightly less than WalMart prices for something I wanted. Good, especially since WalMart is so difficult to deal with, after 10-11 AM, anyway. so...in I go...
grab the item, go to self-check, and... "he's on a --court order-- ..." "he has a FELONY..." "his parents are NOT permitted to help him..."
ugh. I brushed it off, got the item, paid cash...had to wait for change, which was awkward in that context, but...yeah. out. done.
came back to my place, and some lady was yelling about "how we feel about you" and "felonies," and...yeah. :-( thankfully, a neighbor saw me on my way into my unit and said Hi. Small gesture, means a lot.
So...in Christ (over 9 years, now), I am provided with what I need for life and for godliness, plus way more than I can claim to deserve. Not that I live large (LOL), but...wow. wow. compared to what the world had for me (especially the mental health industry), this is...wow. --major act of God-- , possibly a miracle.
the taunting and such continue. I don't get it. My parents are so kind to me, now, and...its not just -stuff- , its...warmth and care and compassion and the expectation that I be (more) responsible, (more) adult, to whatever extent possible.
I'm getting taunted with junk from my (horrifying) attempts at college, years and years ago. I never knew...how much people hated me. Now, in Christ...
not flamboyantly gay, healthy, apparently a high IQ (estimate), average height (beats being short, prematurely aged, and flamboyantly gay...), -not- homely, -not- prematurely aged, and...
yeah. yeah. --frustrating--
please pray. people are openly obnoxious, the bullying is non stop. An HVAC man was out for my system a while back. I had the TV on. I heard people taunting, but I made it a point not to react. He went out on my patio, because he heard it and...
yeah. -that- bad. :-(
please pray. thanks.
