[__ Prayer __] Fears, bullying

[Christ_empowered]

I’m 40. I get bullied a lot. I live in a decent neighborhood now which is something of a miracle in my situation…

So this is 100x better than what would be happening in a group home subsidized housing or whatever is left of the state hospital . I thank God for His mercy and my parents for their generosity.

The flip side of that I think is that people act not only as if I don’t belong here but as if they have a right to drive me out.

More taunts at 3 am. I was actually already up so I found it obnoxious but not troubling. At 6:30ish I’d managed to get some sleep while doing laundry and that woke me up. And…

I tried to put a positive spin on it. It’s getting close to 7 get up! lol so not a big deal.

But there’s this sinister undertone. People have yelled you’ll be homeless when we’re through with you! And said ridiculous things about my parents and…

It’s frustrating. I’m 40 and this is like high school or middle school again but it’s more intense and it’s seemingly impossible to escape.

I tried volunteering but it was bad and I was in a basement room with no escape and I tried talking to my parents about it and my counselor and I was basically told to take my medication which…

Is an understandable but frustrating and dehumanizing response.

I’m labeled with schizophrenia. I’m not 110 percent complaining…everyone has labels in today’s world and mine is partly because of past sins…

But it’s frustrating because I don’t hear voices often and I can distinguish between my thoughts getting intense and becoming voices and what is around me. Side note: each person is different but my low stress lifestyle and getting adequate sleep seem to be the key factors towards overall stability.

People say now…loudly openly…that I need to be evicted. My parents paid cash for this place 6 years ago which was a huge blessing for all of us.

I don’t get it. People also say they want me committed. I’m able to find the free county database that shows that my parents own it how much they paid and when they bought it. I can use this same database to see who owns other units in my complex tax information etc….


But people are literally saying I have upper class pretensions and delusional for thinking that my parents own it?

I’m not trying to hear what people say either. These ap/condos aren’t luxurious but they’re well built and designed to maximize quiet and privacy. If I hear people they’re either outside or talking deliberately loudly enough for me to hear .

So I’m frustrated. And there was the time I had random gauze pads come out of one ear…and I didn’t put them there. That was not fun but the lord saw me through.

Ugh sorry to ramble. I’m not big on tv so I can’t really drown out noises too easily.

I’m frustrated with the situation.

 

[NoahK]

You are 40, your parents won't always be there. So I think one key to your situation is to learn coping mechanisms from a counselor before that happens.

In the meantime I also think another key for you is to ignore the negatives the world throws at you and the positives available through Christ. Since you mentioned you don't watch much TV I would suggest one way to achieve that goal is to set aside time to read your Bible.

Why? Because I have found pretty much every human condition known to man is in that book. And Christ has comfort, solid advice and the power to keep those nasty loud neighbors from bothering you anymore.

And I mean anymore. He can get them totally out of your life if you trust God, Him and the Spirit to make that happen for you.

 

[Vaccine]

I don't get why people feel the need to act like jerks. I'm only about 10 years older so we probably heard something similar growing up. Live and let live. Basically, as long as you aren't bothering them, they shouldn't be bothering you. Quietly sleeping in your home sure isn't bothering anyone.

I'm no expert but most people only stop when there's negative consequences for their actions. Whether it's calling the cops or confronting them or doing it the hard way by killing them with kindness. Even ignoring them is a kind of negative consequence if all they want is to rattle your chain. None of those are really great choices when it comes to your neighbors. I don't feel competent enough to give advice for your situation.

I just know it sucks to have neighbors like that. We did everything we could to deescalate it with ours and eventually sort of called a truce. After 8 years we were so glad to sell our house and move away from those neighbors (the whole neighborhood was bad/rundown). It wasn't as bad as your situation, mine was just over a fence I thought was mine but was actually theirs. I rebuilt it but some people just hold grudges.

 

[Christ_empowered]

I had weird dreams and woke up early….

Just in time for another round of taunts etc. ugh

I’m not all that emo about it but it’s frustrating. It’s extra frustrating because this place isn’t fancy but it has an hoa we have basic rules it’s a quiet area and low crime and….

Ugh I think they got their hands on some expunged arrests. That’s the thing about the legal system….

Even with expungements and plea deals these inaccurate records will still be out there it seems. So…I dunno if I had a felony I’d honestly probably either live at home or try to find a commune or group home or…something. I dunno I just have a misdemeanor conviction and this junk seems to be getting more intense. I’ve been off of probation for over 7 years now!

So I don’t get it. I’m glad your situation resolved nicely. God is Good

 

[Christ_empowered]

Maybe I should just accept…sigh…

That I’m a social non entity? 20 years ago shrinks at a private hospital wanted to put me in a homeless shelter and force me to pick myself up by my boot straps etc. they’d done involuntary shock treatments and some kind of operation that resulted in massive brain damage…I found out about it a couple of years later when I got a brain scan…

But ok this isn’t a pity party btw just…I don’t trust the helping professions for obvious reasons.

So I’m 40 now and healthy and surprisingly high iq estimate and my parents are doing well and I’m law abiding and…

I still feel sometimes like I have been freed from the equivalent of modern day slavery. He whom The Son has set free is set free indeed.

The only problem is that I cannot work no one wants to hire me or people like me anyway….

And it’s almost as if I really thought that I could find redemption in society. Or at least that the conflict and labels would end somehow. But…


Nope not happening. I’m definitely not a member of the community but that’s to be expected. It’s strange because I grew up in this area but it’s what’s happening.

The minor acts of aggression are kind of frustrating. Beat up cans in pick up orders. Snarky comments from clerks at gas stations ️. I went to do a curbside pickup at a big box store and someone was babbling about me having a conservator or guardian and…

I don’t. I even went to my county’s probate court to check if they had anything like that on record for me. Nope. I praise God for His mercy!

So I thank God for His love and mercy. I’m just dealing with the world around me and…

The barely contained contempt some people have for me is unnerving. I don’t really know many people? I don’t get it…

 

[Corn Pop]

Involuntary shock treatment should be banned. It should be called involuntary torture as they fry peoples brains back to the stone age in there scientific experiences.

 

[Christ_empowered]

It’s pretty terrible. I had a brain scan that showed massive severe brain damage…

 

[Corn Pop]

It’s pretty terrible. I had a brain scan that showed massive severe brain damage…

I'm sorry you had to go through that brother. The main thing is you got Christ, and you got us as friends for support , you got your parants who love you and have only and always just wanted the best for you.

Your intelligent and smart.

I think you just suffer a lack of confidence from past trauma and a form of psychosis as you hear voices and you sometimes think people are talking about you or they always conspiring against you. You feel weak within yourself.

I think you need to build your self confidence back up my brother.

 

[Christ_empowered]

Yeah….

God is helping me a lot with everything. My parents are kind to me. You and other posters here have been great. It’s hard sometimes because on the one hand I cannot work but my family has been able and willing to keep me off the streets and out of institutions and now I have a nice place that even has a view!

Not working is apparently unacceptable? But some people cannot work. I’ve tried to work and it was miserable and not just for me. I’m now 40 so I’m thankful for my health and intelligence and life and normalcy….


But I’m 40 in 21st century USA. It’s not as if any employer is going to jump at the chance to hire me. I’m ok with the situation but it does leave me with lots and lots of time and even volunteering didn’t go well so…????

Thanks