Christ_empowered
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...finally! LOL. Seriously. I was involuntarily electroshocked to the point that I had severe frontal lobe syndrome, aka Post-lobotomy syndrome. Apathy, lack of initiative and drive, no personality, cognitive impairment, memory loss, and loss of emotions..including anger.
My neighbors, they harass me. Pretty weird situation. Basically, I'm the town pariah and scapegoat, and Jesus has heard my prayers and healed me nicely. Good stuff. I'm also: ex-gay, ex-mental patient, ex-junky, formerly effeminate. This is the south. I'm not Mr.Popular, lol.
So, I was on my parents big front porch having a cigarette. The neighbors made some kinda comment, and I just snapped. Keep in mind: this has been going on for years. So, I did curse. Sorry. Allow me to edit what I said. "Here's f***in idea: keep your d**n mouths shut, rednecks!". yeah. I prayed about it already. I'm very sorry. I shouldn't have said those things, I shouldn't have yelled, and I should brush these things off. Keep in mind: I was a vegetable--varying degrees of apathy, laziness, sleeping too much, eating too much, emotionless, etc.--until fairly recently.
Help me with my frustration! Every day, I pray for those who despitefully used, use, and would use (given the opportunity) me. If I didn't have a good attorney right now (thank you, Jesus!), I'd be in a mental hospital, at best. Such is the nature of psychiatry (seriously: they're the same now as in the 1950s!).
Men have taken to threatening my masculinity. That makes me mad, because I'm only becoming masculine because of Jesus. I was only effeminate before because of circumstances beyond my control. Of course, you can't look to the world--particularly those who despise and oppress you--for compassion. Look to Jesus, look to Christians, look to The Word of God. I get that.
Ramble, ramble, ramble...please pray
My neighbors, they harass me. Pretty weird situation. Basically, I'm the town pariah and scapegoat, and Jesus has heard my prayers and healed me nicely. Good stuff. I'm also: ex-gay, ex-mental patient, ex-junky, formerly effeminate. This is the south. I'm not Mr.Popular, lol.
So, I was on my parents big front porch having a cigarette. The neighbors made some kinda comment, and I just snapped. Keep in mind: this has been going on for years. So, I did curse. Sorry. Allow me to edit what I said. "Here's f***in idea: keep your d**n mouths shut, rednecks!". yeah. I prayed about it already. I'm very sorry. I shouldn't have said those things, I shouldn't have yelled, and I should brush these things off. Keep in mind: I was a vegetable--varying degrees of apathy, laziness, sleeping too much, eating too much, emotionless, etc.--until fairly recently.
Help me with my frustration! Every day, I pray for those who despitefully used, use, and would use (given the opportunity) me. If I didn't have a good attorney right now (thank you, Jesus!), I'd be in a mental hospital, at best. Such is the nature of psychiatry (seriously: they're the same now as in the 1950s!).
Men have taken to threatening my masculinity. That makes me mad, because I'm only becoming masculine because of Jesus. I was only effeminate before because of circumstances beyond my control. Of course, you can't look to the world--particularly those who despise and oppress you--for compassion. Look to Jesus, look to Christians, look to The Word of God. I get that.
Ramble, ramble, ramble...please pray