Ok, it's time for me to fess up as to what I've been up to here. April, I deliberately increased the difficulty level of my replies to you, from like February thru May, just to see what happened. I am the fourth child of two educators, and my 3 older siblings all have careers that are educating others; so I sorta know what I'm doing here.
April, you have at times exhibited comprehension and cognition that goes WAY beyond 9th grade level; and there are times you get stumped with simple stuff. It is completely normal for anyone with any sort of disability to have good days and bad days. When you don't immediately get the gist of my post and I don't try to simplify it for you I'm not being a jerk, I'm prodding you to exert yourself, ponder it, "seek the Lord," praying for insight, and/or hoping someone else on the forum may be able to phrase it in a way that makes more sense to you. Seeing our Lord and Savior work in you this way is unmistakable, and a great Joy!
There is very much a community here that supports one another, and feeds the Lambs as well as the sheep; I'm proud just to be part of it, and incredibly humbled to serve as a mod. Know that you are Loved in the Lord, as a Sister ...