[ Testimony ] The Lord Provides- my testimony

[lmw]

I've been posting here for a few months, introduced myself, but never shared my testimony.

I accepted Jesus as my Savior in 1999 when I was 19. That was a very difficult year... my friend Pete died on Valentines day, my friend Danny died in April, in May my favorite Uncle died, and then in November my Grandpa died. I was recently diagnosed with epilepsy after years of trying to figure out what was wrong with me, and then my parents lost their house. We moved to the next state over, that too was stressful. After going through too much, I got down on my knees and asked Jesus to come into my heart and make me new again.

Over the next 5 years I witnessed my Dad come to Christ and also witnessed my Mother grow closer in her walk as well. We found and joined a church in 2004 I still attend today. July 2006 I was baptized with my dad in a pool in a back yard of one of the elders. Dad was to the point where all his free time he spent either spreading the word or he was studying the word. He had his nose in the bible all the time. He shared his beliefs with customers at the hardware store he worked and he became best friends with the Pastor at our church. His relationship with Christ is something I still admire. October 27th 2006 he had a heart attack, then passed away November 16th with me, my mom, and my brother by his side.

May 16th 2008 I married a man I first met 8 years before, we were always aquaintences over the years but grew closer the year prior. I was a big fan of the Christian band he was in (led by another friend) and we eventually connected and got married. First year of marriage was ok, then he became very abusive towards me as he turned away from Christ. It got so bad that instead of praying for the abuse to stop and for our marriage to be repaired, I started praying for a way out because I couldn't endure it anymore. We have a son together and his safety was more important than anything. July 2010 I had to get a restraining order against my husband because he threatened me with a loaded shotgun. He was mentally ill and was drunk all the time at that point. One year and two months after our separation, after using heroin and other drugs during that time, he overdosed. There was a suicide note, so he took his own life.

I know what I typed above was long, but I wanted to share my story. I have been through a lot, but every step of the way, Jesus was right there with me. I believe I was healed by His hand and I have been seizure free since 2004. Though there were times I questioned whether or not He was still with me; looking back, I now know he was there. I'm a single mom of a little boy who has developmental issues, but every month I'm able to pay the rent, put food on the table, and even give what I can to church. I've overcome a lot but I have my struggles and I'm still recovering from what I endured the past couple years.

The Lord provides, and every step of the way, He is with me.

 

[farouk]

Hi; lmw; good to read your account. The Lord strengthens His people. God bless you and your son.

 

[reba]

Wonderful just plain wonderful

 

[Classik]

He will never leave you nor forsake you. God bless you. Thanks for sharing

(Does that kid cry a lot? Wonderful avatar My sister cried a lot. She cried until she used up all her tears)

 

[lmw]

I cried sooooo much when I was little, still a rather emotional grown up. Yes Gunnar is a cryer, screamer, especially when he's frustrated. His moods change so much its hard to keep up with him. For the most part he's a VERY happy child, but if something is off, tired, hungry, look out... last night he hit his head coming in the door after I picked him up from daycare, he had an emotional melt down that lasted for over an hour.

Because of all of this and other struggles he has, he's in an early development program and will soon be tested for autism. If he is diagnosed, it will be a mild form I'm sure. Not convinced at this point he is autistic, but there's something going on with my little guy

There's a family history of bipolar and depression on his Dad's side, my husband and mother in law both lost their battle by ending their own lives, only 4 months apart, and I keep waiting to get that phone call that his sister's time came... but I pray it won't come. My husband was unofficially diagnosed with autism at one point. I remember one time I saw him walking, thought it was so weird that he always, always walked on his tippy toes if he was barefoot. A couple weeks after his passing I read on the internet that in autistic people, one of the symptoms of autism is doing that same thing. I think a major factor in his early death was the lack of proper diagnosis and proper treatment.

I have really learned to give all of this to the Lord. I have NO idea I could even survive this without my faith. It all has brought me that much closer to God, for sure! The whole autism thing sometimes terrifies me thinking my son could be diagnosed, but I keep telling myself, the Lord will get us through.

 

[Classik]

I have really learned to give all of this to the Lord.

And the good Lord who sees what man can't see will always be there for you. There is nothing to fear. Your baby is okay.


I spend a great deal of my time on private matters when am not away from home. I work on my electronics stuff, do poetry, do sports stuff etc. They all keep me very busy. That doesn't mean I have a condition, avoiding people.

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That kid is a great kid. Do not listen to the lies of the enemies. God is with you both.

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Does your kid have playmates? It helps kids a lot. You could notice he's happier with his fellow kids at the daycare.

 

[lmw]

He goes to daycare, has 4 other classmates in his little development class, and when we can I take him to my cousin's house where he has 6 cousins to play with, four are 5yrs and under. He's around children a lot but only now he is interacting with them a little bit. Where he struggles is social interactions and we're working on that. When he is around other kids, he much prefers going off somewhere and playing by himself. He has come a long way since he started school a couple months ago. He's talking more and interacting more too, even the daycare lady noticed the improvement.

He is such a great little guy