It seemed to me that you presented yourself as a Calvinist. Am I wrong?
Part of the problem is that there are so many different types of Calvinists - with differing ideas. It makes it a little difficult to get to the meat of the discussion.
I must say, however that both Conditional and Unconditional election could not be true or God would be causing a confusion...
Will continue reading to understand you better.
Although I understand a little of what you state above...your comment leaves much to be desired to understanding your position.
The "unfallen version" of us no longer exists. You're speaking in the past tense.
We can only love God in the here and now.
How could our feelings for God be in the past tense??
Nothing is said in the above about the wicked. But the N.T. has much to say about those that do not love God.
Romans 1:28 is a good start.
28And just as they did not see fit to acknowledge God any longer, God gave them over to a depraved mind, to do those things which are not proper, 29being filled with all unrighteousness, wickedness, greed, evil; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, malice; they are gossips, 30slanderers, haters of God, insolent, arrogant, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, 31without understanding, untrustworthy, unloving, unmerciful; 32and although they know the ordinance of God, that those who practice such things are worthy of death, they not only do the same, but also give hearty approval to those who practice them.
I do agree with you that reprobation, as understood in Calvinism, is not correct...
however, it doesn't seem that you finished your though up above.
What IS the whole picture??
You said it's both.
HOW is it conditional?
And how did the "unfallen version" of us never come into existence if the N.T. says we are all born lost?
Ephesians 2:1-3
1And you were dead in your trespasses and sins, 2in which you formerly walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, of the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience. 3Among them we too all formerly lived in the lusts of our flesh, indulging the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest.