It's too bad I was out of town for the last few days. I see people have forgotten which forum this is and what the rules are. Please address the OP's (dashboardchic19) questions and avoid debating. It is confusing enough without the added debates.
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dashboardchic19, as you have seen, even Christians can struggle with questions and have different interpretations of Scripture for we all fall short of the glory of God. But, one thing we have that you may not understand yet is the hope and/or assurance of Salvation that comes through trust and faith in Jesus Christ. For it is in Him that we can be saved and Him alone.