Hello everyone, I am a recent christian turned agnostic. (Please don't try to change my view points) but I would like to know why you believe what you believe? I personally let go of Christianity for many reasons, 1. because I am not intrested in following a god that has no business in helping me or trying to make me better, I have prayed,prayed, and prayed some more, but nothing not one speck of help from him. 2. I was happy when I was an unbeliever, and when I because a christian I was sad, depressed, anxiety ridden and ocd ridden all because if christianity, before this I was fine, but these past few months have been the worst of my life and after a year of faith, I am done. I have given up of the god of Christianity. 3. Too many rules, I have been troubled by soany rules in my life that I simply could not live without worrying about of I was sinning and I got sick of it ang gave it up. I still believe there could be a god, but that god is not knowable and not able to understand. I also do not believe in sin or salvation.
I understand this perspective. But let me put this on its head. The rules come from a heart, if the heart is right
the rules help to show when things have gone wrong. The rule itself is just a red flag, that we need to change our
perspective and focus. So if rules dominate one has already lost the focus on ones heart and God.
Imagine learning to drive a car. If you do not follow the rules, crash, no car, no travel, and sometimes no life.
So we then say we should not drive because there are so many rules? No we learn the rules because we want
to get from a to b quickly and safely and it is the best method available.
Jesus came to me and compared my way of living and loving to His. He pointed out how much I wanted to conform
to be accepted, to worry about how others felt, and was only prepared to do a little, but Jesus was prepared to do so
much. It flawed me, and showed my how much I had to learn.
When we say God has not spoken to me, what is the bible? How many people over the centuries have read and
lived this book and told about Gods ways and methods of reaching out to us? So it is us who refuse to listen, or
put effort in, on push the boundaries of what we are prepared to do. We mostly want excuses, because it is safe,
and when we step out in faith, He is there. I have found so many times, He speaks to me when I step out in
faith, not before, so silence is always my fault, I need to show willing and be willing.
The first step spiritually for me was praise. I started to sing Praise to the King, alone in my room. My heart lifted
my spirit and soul soared. It was exercising faith of God in the spiritual, the world of heaven come to earth.
So I ask you, go to that quiet place, and praise God for His word, His blessing, His forgiveness and He will meet
with you. Take up His word and listen to what it is saying, and it will find you where you need it. A living relationship
has to begin and be alive with emotion, joy and sadness to be alive. Breath life into faith, God bless, Amen.