Hello sister Wondering. Always happy to read your words
. True, that words Salvation and Saved should be guardedly used by Christians. Not rampantly and freely, as some use it in today's day and time. I do not.
Coming to dying for Jesus : Some of the ones who laid down their lives were ones who denied Him, when Jesus was on earth . Possibly not just Peter alone . You've raised a good point sister Wondering. Will we or wont we? Will I be able to lay down our life for Him... I do not know either way. Some of my friends in the army say, that some of their colleagues who were cowardly otherwise, something happened to them when they were in midst of action (war) and some of these emerged as great heroes and even martyrs. I believe Jesus's Spirit entered those who laid down their lives for Him, when the push came to shove, and beyond. Finally it would be the greatest honor if that could happen to me . Hope it does. Probability says it's not going to happen. Finally God's will be done either way. This is a prayer I'm obsessed with. "Lord Your Will Be Done" To the extent , no matter what I pray, if I pray, I urge the Lord subsequent to the prayer "Reject my prayer Lord, if it's not consistent with your will. Let Your Will be done "
It's after a lot of hard knocks, even as a Christian, that this one line salvation message of Bible finally entered my thick skull
"Lord. Let. Your. Will. Be. Done! "
Jesus says in John 15 :13 (NLT) "There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends."
This quote is not limited only to Christ laying down His life for us. But it's also His expectation from us whom He called Friends. That like Him, we may also demonstrate our love for Him in the same way. His apostles responded in the affirmative by laying down their lives.
Jesus says in John 15: 15 " I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you."
It's a covenant sister. A covenant has bilateral obligations. Somehow it was reduced to unilateral. Everything was placed on Jesus. All we had to do was believe. And therefore I quoted a bunch of Christ words, caveats if you will, that whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever lays down their life for me will keep it . I take these words very seriously, since they are found throughout the four gospels. Sometimes more than once. I take these words to my heart and to my soul. And I do not desire salvation . Whatever Jesus hands out to me on the day of judgment is welcome. Even in those moments of my eternal destiny, His Will be done. Blessings upon everyone /\
[These above thoughts are mine alone. It is completely fine with me if some do not wish to agree. I will still respect you . By losing an argument to a brother/ sister I will win :]
I end this long post with words of Sadhu Sundar Singh , an eminent 19th century Evangelist in India . His thoughts resonate with my own :
"Should I worship Him from fear of hell, may I be cast into it. Should I serve Him from desire of gaining heaven, may He keep me out. But should I worship Him from love alone, He reveals Himself to me, that my whole heart may be filled with His love and presence."
(Sadhu Sundar Singh )