jasoncran
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well wanting thing or a life isnt bad . but you will find that life is most self-destructive. we have another gay celebate man here who is being healed as we speak. his testimony is that is as destructive as i learned and far more so.for me loving men was so wrong. i knew it was. i would go to church and hear YHWH screaming at me its in. you cant love him. repent. i didnt make you love a man. i was confronted by friend and she told me where to read in the bible and i repented. i started liking boys at the age of 10. i cant explain why, i dont really care to know. all i know is that its gone i have control.btw judaism wont stop that for you. i know of no jews that speak out against gays as being a sin except the hasidic and kaballahs. both of them are cults to the jews in general.Well I respect you. It is strange you mentioned "bisexuality". I have actually started to lust after men for some reason. Picturing myself as a feminine male. Even though one of my goals in life is to get married to a woman and have a family with her. Sometimes I wonder what is going on with my mind and how the human brain functions like it does. I would be telling the truth that I have lied before. I would also be telling the truth I have sinned many times. I probably have sinned more then I lied. Who knows. Like I mention before my life is not in a good place. I'm in good health, I help people, i have good intitions for myself. I just want apart of the pie. Seeing Judaism changed my mind on going down the road many are going. I felt I never had the family I wanted growing up. I feel Judaism will bring into the Jewish family and allow me to meet a nice Jewish woman to have a children with. Also I want to be a Freemason since many of my ancestors are Masons and the fire burning in my heart just tells me Judaism is true. I'm not someone wanting a revolution. I want to be there for everyone. Feel true love, respect, family and all that.
the identity crisis wont stop if you remian in bisexual issues. you will always want the other side . when i was with my man. i still looked at women. i never cheated but i looked. is that what you want.seeing the members of the sex you want and you are with someone be it a man or a women and wanting more, never satisified?