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- Jul 29, 2023
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That is not what I asked.
Is Christianity true?
Is Jesus the only way to God, to have a life in heaven, do non Christians face an eternity separated from God?
I will answer your question if you answer mine.
Yes to both of your questions.
I've struggled with this the past year. In my anger toward God, and even many times telling him to eff off with a middle finger extended toward Him, after my mom died the only reason I felt bad for her was because I thought maybe she didn't accept God's grace when she was in hospice, and the fact that God would torment her, a human being, with eternal fire and torment, I had a really hard time dealing with that. Frankly I told Him that I think God is narcissistic and so full of Himself that He makes everything about Him. Accept Him and you will live, someone who supposedly loves us so much, but reject Him, and He will torment you with fire forever and ever. Have you ever seen a stick close to molten lava, and the lava is so hot it just instantly bursts into flames? Have you ever put your hand on a red hot stove?
If someone who supposedly loves us so much would torment us, I think it's extremely vindictive of God to do that to people. I'm not talking about Satan and his fallen angels. They saw the face of God and walked with Him. I'm talking about human beings. I really struggled with this the last year, and I thought how cruel that He would do that. Why not just let people sleep for eternity if He wants to burn them, so at least they will never suffer. Or let them just sit alone in darkness forever and ever? I've lived alone for 25 years in solitude, and I know how painful solitude can be. That would be enough.
But no. God can't stand anyone having anything apart from him. "there is no peace, says my God, for the wicked". I think God is a narcissistic douchebag that can't stand it when we have *anything* good apart from Him. He's the one that's full of Himself. If He loves us, why would he be so cruel?
I couldn't stand the thought of my mother -- even though I witnessed to her when I saw her the last time in the hospital in the hospice wing, in fact I *pleaded* with her to accept God's grace -- and I know it was her choice to accept it or not. But knowing my mom for almost five decades, she was a terrible parent and I hated her, I would never wish torment upon her. And I really thought how cruel God was. I mean, God created the universe, He is in control, *He* alone chooses to make it that way. He doesn't have to, but He chooses to be that vindictive and cruel that he would do that to people. I've known people that would never ever harm another person, let alone burn them forever and ever. I'm sorry, but that's just freaking cruel and vindictive, and those people that never knew God but are actually good people, I think they are better than God.
But to answer your question. The only way to heaven is through Jesus. Jesus gave a parable about those that try to get to heaven by any other way is a thief and a robber.
I still think He's cruel.
Now answer my question, if you're actually serious about talking with me.
7 years ago, when I went up to give my heart to God a second time, and He finally changed my heart. I loved God and felt His love. Turning to witchcraft, even though I was so tempted to find a coven even then, I found these thoughts flooding my head so distressing and unthinkable then. Now 7 years later, I do this so easily, and I find I've switched to the complete opposite. I find it so hard (and my heart so dead) to staying with God, but so easy to turn to the craft. Why is this? I asked Him at work the other day when in the bathroom, why do I find it so hard to stay with you, but so easy to turn back to the craft? Of course His goodness hasn't ceased in my life even though I don't hear His voice any more.
Jesus said "I will never leave you or forsake you". He promises to never leave us. So if He never leaves us and we can't do anything without Him, why do I find it so hard to turn to Him when it was the complete polar opposite 7 years ago? Answer me this.