I need some help, please.
I asked God a few years back to find me a mate. Lo and behold, she appeared. I've watched God work in so many ways in this situation that I know for a fact that she is the one for me that He "selected." I "tested" it. In fact God also told me that she is mine. We haven't spoken yet, but from far away glances I can tell we're both infatuated with each other.
Problem is, this woman is my complete opposite in terms of lifestyle. I'm suffering a faith failure right now because I'm having "God Trust" issues just like in the Book of Numbers 13:27-33. I'm asking myself, "why would He pair me with this woman? She's completely my opposite." So I'm freaking out inside.
So I caved and went back to my old ways last weekend (internet dating) and instantly found a woman who I'm scheduling to meet this Friday. On paper she is exactly what I'm looking for.
I don't know what to do. This morning I had a dream that my father (Yes, he's alive) started crying and I comforted him and said, it's okay. I had the feeling that I disappointed him / failed, which is the reason he was crying so my saying "it's okay" was meant to comfort him.
Is this a sign that I should completely forget the online date and just focus on what God said is mine. I'm really just bored waiting for the one He chose for me, and most importantly, I'm deeply afraid that I won't be able to handle it. I'm suffering a Trust issue with God and can't wrap around that He will take care of the consequences. I'm actually afraid of the consequences! What should I do? Can I date others WHILE He sends her my way?
I asked God a few years back to find me a mate. Lo and behold, she appeared. I've watched God work in so many ways in this situation that I know for a fact that she is the one for me that He "selected." I "tested" it. In fact God also told me that she is mine. We haven't spoken yet, but from far away glances I can tell we're both infatuated with each other.
Problem is, this woman is my complete opposite in terms of lifestyle. I'm suffering a faith failure right now because I'm having "God Trust" issues just like in the Book of Numbers 13:27-33. I'm asking myself, "why would He pair me with this woman? She's completely my opposite." So I'm freaking out inside.
So I caved and went back to my old ways last weekend (internet dating) and instantly found a woman who I'm scheduling to meet this Friday. On paper she is exactly what I'm looking for.
I don't know what to do. This morning I had a dream that my father (Yes, he's alive) started crying and I comforted him and said, it's okay. I had the feeling that I disappointed him / failed, which is the reason he was crying so my saying "it's okay" was meant to comfort him.
Is this a sign that I should completely forget the online date and just focus on what God said is mine. I'm really just bored waiting for the one He chose for me, and most importantly, I'm deeply afraid that I won't be able to handle it. I'm suffering a Trust issue with God and can't wrap around that He will take care of the consequences. I'm actually afraid of the consequences! What should I do? Can I date others WHILE He sends her my way?