With what you just wrote here, I'm inclined to think that the more I desire the fleshly life, the more rotten, the more un-Christlike, the more immoral, the more sinful I see myself to be then the more support there is that I am saved.
Not at all, ....
What im saying is ....that the more Christ-Like you become, the more filthy you'll realize that you flesh actually is...
See , real repentance isnt being so very sorry for what you've done, but rather real repentance is being so very sorry for what you are, as compared to Jesus and a Holy God.
Paul said...'that which i would do, i dont do, and that which i hate, i do, ...who will deliver me from this body of death".
= (Adamic nature).
And what He is showing you, Wip, is that when you became a believer in Jesus, and by Faith were born again......A new birth happened inside you.
So, now you've had 2 separate birthdays, once you are saved.
You still have the Adamic Nature, but now you have a 2nd Birthday redeemed and "quickened" born again Spirit that is also 'in there" now.
These 2 fight if you are saved, and that is Paul saying...."what i would do .(my "redeemed Spirt man),.. is battling my Adamic Nature,..("that i would not want to do, i do")..
So, that is the duality that exists WITHIN every born again person.
This is Colossians 2:11, which is a "spiritual circumcision".....where God has literally separated the "new man" from the Adamic nature inside one body.
Every Christian has this situation within themselves, and that is the constant fight.
Everyday the fight is....will the New Man prevail, or will the Adamic Nature run the show.
Will you walk in the Spirit, in the Light, or will you give in to the carnal "other" part of you.
Will you stare at the REDBOX movies and see the R rated ones that call to your Adamic nature and get them, or will you pass them by and find the good clean movie instead (or no movie) that makes your Holy Spirit birthed "new man" inside feel good about your choice. ??????
Wip, that is the battle between darkness and light that exists within every born again believer, constantly.
CHOICES.. are the battle.
Constantly these choices occur, these private battles within ourselves, IF we are saved.
If a person is not saved, then they dont have this going on inside them.....they just grab the R-movie, and have no 2nd thought or "pricked conscious" about it.
Not so for us.