It's good to think about the importance of life. I was never in the armed forces of the USA (thank you for your service
), but God did use circumstances I was in to show me that my could end in a flash. I thought about that..
That's how the Apostles felt in the Garden of Gethsemane. It's how Lazarus' sisters felt along with their grieving friends
when our Lord didn't come right away.....and Lazarus died.
Calvanists don't seem to believe there are any "natural" desires that aren't sin.
Calvanism seems to believe that sunce aquiring the knowledge of good and evil, people only think evil.
Seeing how nailing Jesus to a cross was the act of sinful mankind did that for me after I learned,
he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stoneat her. Jn.8:7 KJV
You therefore have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things. Rom.2:1 NIV
“Judge not, and you will not be judged; condemn not, and you will not be condemned; forgive, and you will be forgiven; Lk.6:37 ESV
God has always since the beginning of creation corrected all mankind this way.
The problem my friend is that Jesus held back the wrath of God by holding back his own wrath against vile men who sinning against God himself without knowing it.