I'm a lesbian. I have found women attractive since as long as I can remember. When I was a very small child (probably about 5) I would feel confusion when women around me used to oggle and comment on "sexy" men on television. It felt confusing and even a bit gross. Women, however, took my breath away. Such beauty! I didn't know what lesbianism was though so I didn't think much about this.
I'm assuming that, because from very early on your thoughts were of this sort, you believe you must, therefore, be lesbian. Your reasoning seems to be: If I was thinking this way
as a young child, my thoughts about the beauty of women
has to have been congenital, a feature of my self, like my eye color, or the shape of my hands or face. Well, why? Children think all sorts of unusual things, and have all sorts of widely-varying and peculiar impulses, and are deeply impressionable. Certainly, the devil knows this. And he works as much as he can to insinuate into children feelings and thoughts that will contort and corrupt them. Sometimes, he does this obliquely through social influences (popular media, cultural currents, public education) but also directly, as he did with Judas (for an extreme example -
Luke 22:3; John 13:2). Why people tend to think children are exempt from demonic manipulation, I don't know. The Bible reveals quite graphically that children can be taken over by the demonic:
Mark 9:17-22
17 And one of the crowd answered Him, "Teacher, I brought You my son, possessed with a spirit which makes him mute;
18 and whenever it seizes him, it slams him to the ground and he foams at the mouth, and grinds his teeth and stiffens out. I told Your disciples to cast it out, and they could not do it."
19 And He *answered them and *said, "O unbelieving generation, how long shall I be with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring him to Me!"
20 They brought the boy to Him. When he saw Him, immediately the spirit threw him into a convulsion, and falling to the ground, he began rolling around and foaming at the mouth.
21 And He asked his father, "How long has this been happening to him?" And he said, "From childhood.
22 "It has often thrown him both into the fire and into the water to destroy him. But if You can do anything, take pity on us and help us!"
That young children have unnatural thoughts and feelings concerning their own sex does not, then,
have to mean they are biologically disposed to homosexuality. There is always a spiritual realm within which we all move, occupied by demonic powers that are constantly working to bring people into confusion, bondage and destruction. What better way to accomplish these things than by warping the sexual impulse - one of the most powerful impulses God has given to us?
I actually realized I was lesbian very late. I was 18. Through my teen years I just thought I was bisexual but "Picky" with males. I tried dating boys but I was awkward, grossed out and didn't want to do anything outside of normal friendship things. I just assumed it is because I was an "innocent" girl and also an abuse survivor.
I don't know how aware you might be of this, but homosexuality is often associated with early childhood sexual abuse (among other things). What a clever thing it is for the devil to manipulate your thoughts and feelings as a child and then cement them by way of childhood abuse and the lies of the world about human sexuality over which he has enormous control.
Fast forward to today. We live together "socially married" and are happier and closer than ever.
??? There is no such thing as "socially married" in God's eyes. And that you are happy and close does not legitimize your "marriage" as far as He's concerned. Whenever we stray from God's will and design for things, we move toward destruction. First of all, and most awfully, doing things our way keeps us from truly knowing and walking with Him. God is determined that we do things His way; if we won't, the price of our self-will is the loss of joyful fellowship with Him.
I did share my experience of this "lesbian dating a man" once on a different non religion related forum and was met with intense hostility. How can a woman be gay and with a man???
There are no gay people, only
sinners in need of salvation and transformation. This is why Paul the apostle wrote the following:
1 Corinthians 6:9-11
9 Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor homosexuals,
10 nor thieves, nor the covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers, will inherit the kingdom of God.
11 Such were some of you; but you were washed, but you were sanctified, but you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and in the Spirit of our God.
There are no Christian alcoholics, or Christian drug addicts, or Christian abuse victims, or Christian homosexuals, only Christians, "
new creatures in Christ" for whom "old things are passed away and, behold, all things are become new." (
2 Corinthians 5:17). When Christians define themselves in terms of their sinful past, they reveal how little they know, and believe, of their new identity in Jesus Christ. In him, all sinners have been "made new," freed from the godless, sin-bound person they were, and made a "joint-heir with Christ" (
Romans 8:17) a "saint" (
Romans 1:7; 1 Corinthians 1:2), a "temple of the Holy Spirit" (
1 Corinthians 6:19-20) a person united with Christ in his death, burial, and resurrection and thus made free of the power of Self and Sin (
Romans 6:1-11).
Anyway. I'd like to state my opinion now on homosexuality and faith. This is merely my opinion so please bare this in mind. Yours may differ and that is absolutely fine.
Well, as far as God is concerned, there is no "your truth and my truth," there is only His truth. And when we don't submit to His truth, we sin and make ourselves an enemy of God. For Christians, then, all opinions are to be subject to what God says to His children in His word, the Bible. Where their opinions diverge from His, those opinions are in the wrong and ought to be abandoned.
There is no such thing as "former gay". To say this is actually sinful. Here's why I think this: My experience as a gay person clearly shows me it is a mental illness you are born with.
Is this what God indicates about homosexuality in His word, the Bible? No. Read
Romans 1:18-32.
Gay is a mental illness. Humans are a type of animal.
No, not according to God's word. Humans are not animals, but are special creatures made uniquely in God's image.
If gay is normal for a species then said species may die out due to them not reproducing. This totally dismantles the belief some gay people have that "everybody is gay. there is no such thing as straight".
Yup. If the Theory of Evolution were true, homosexuality would have been selected out as a counter-survival trait and removed from the gene pool. God says homosexuality has to do with human rebellion against Him and the judgment He renders upon such rebellion, letting wicked people sink further and further into the depravity their rebellion always produces. Again, read
Romans 1:18-32. The devil gets in on this, too, making a bad situation much worse.
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