Boaz
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There is a lot there to answer. First if you were ever truly a believer you would still be a believer according to the verses you quoted , which by the way is how I believe.If this were true I would still be a believer.
My heart cannot do anything but pump blood of which I am grateful. The evidence says that we don't have a soul. So what do you mean by finding it in my heart? Are you just saying feelings?
I did for a long time. He never showed up.
Is it my responsibility?:
No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him. And I will raise him up on the last day. Jn 6:44
For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, EPH 2:8
He predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will, EPH 1:5
For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. Ro 8:29
It seems it is up to God to draw me to him or save me by his choice. These verse indicate that it is up to god to save me, so I guess I live my life and wait and see. I know there are verses that say the opposite but that is another issue of inerrancy.
Second I am not talking about the physical heart and I am not talking about feelings. I am talking about the innermost being of a person and before you ask "whatever that is", which admittedly is a thing to question, it is the place inside you that KNOWS something is true or right, without needing visible proof. The knowing is its own proof. It is something God PUTS in us.
What evidence is there that we don't have a soul?
Concerning your asking for mercy and not receiving it, you do actually receive mercy from God every time you take a breath, instead of not taking one. But the mercy extended in salvation, or same thing said a different way, in trusting Jesus to save us from the wrath of God, which we all deserve, just let me say about He never showed up that never isn't here yet.
I do not know what you are expecting from God that would be proof to you if His existence. Maybe you could tell me? Specifically?
To be honest it often seems like you have already made your mind up not to believe and are going to make sure you hear no one. Or possibly that you thought it would be fun to harass us.
I suspect from some of your other threads, since you have mentioned prior church attendance and belief, that something, maybe in a church you attended, happens that hurt and/or angered you and turned you away. It could easily happen I'm ashamed to have to admit. The visible church in general in this day and age is a shambles of mix and match, make it up, way out of the boundaries of true New Testament church doctrine and teaching that it's only by the grace of God anyone hears the truth. So if this is the case and you want to share, maybe we can get out of this circular conversation.