Of course Jesus understands this dilemma. We are all put under the dominion of these "elemental" spirits, in effect to "train" us to be against them. To essentially "divide" ourselves away from any of that 'internal compelling.' The fact of this however does not depart.
The very first "spiritual fruit" that we receive from Above is being "honest" about this internal reality of being bound with "evil."
So internal evil, in this way, provides us the fruit of HONESTY. Which fruit I happen to very much enjoy participating in. I have no requirement to "hide" anything from God in Christ, as if He CAN NOT SEE ME within.
And it is there, within,
that HE DIVIDES us. Literally "standing in our midst" dividing US from the very evil that we are presently planted into. This is the spiritual GROUND of darkness that we break forth from as we seek our GROWTH in His Light.
In the Old Testament this is called 'taking root downward' and producing fruit, upward. The "dung" of evil is literally in the roots of our ground.
Isaiah 27:6
He shall cause them that come of Jacob to
take root: Israel shall blossom and bud,
and fill the face of the world with fruit.
Isaiah 37:31
And the remnant that is escaped of the house of Judah shall again take root downward, and bear fruit upward:
Jesus, by reason of example, deployed the same matters here, for the tree which bore no fruit:
Luke 13:
6 He spake also this parable; A certain man had a fig tree planted in his vineyard; and he came and sought fruit thereon, and found none.
7 Then said he unto the dresser of his vineyard, Behold, these three years I come seeking fruit on this fig tree, and find none: cut it down; why cumbereth it the ground?
8 And he answering said unto him, Lord, let it alone this year also, till I shall dig about it, and dung it:
9 And if it bear fruit, well: and if not, then after that thou shalt cut it down.
Internal evil in every way COMPELS us to produce fruit AGAINST it. Yet it is this same part of us, the source of our internal struggle to do so, to produce AGAINST IT.
The "first fruit" that emerges is HONESTY. And this is precious fruit, in His Sight.
We may even observe that Jacob came before his father of the flesh, Isaac, as a liar and a thief of his elder brothers inheritance, even drapped in goat skin. If that ain't an allegory of gigantic proportions.
And Jacob was BLESSED by that engagement, because he came before his father, HONESTLY.
Jacob, the very name of same, means WRESTLER. And we should see what he was "wrestling" with.
God in Christ will NOT knock us on the head for being honest.
Then you may see why I refuse to justify "the entirety" of my sweet old self, as much as my "internal" pride may lead me to conclude otherwise. I know that pride is of Satan, and can turn me into an instant hypocrite. Which I sincerely do not desire to be.
I have actually found the TREASURY of Jesus, that man shall live by every Word of God.
And that also includes the BAD WORDS, which are meant to be applied to my own internal opposer, that is not me.
Gods Words are very effective if applied in this direction. We're just not used to coming before Him in this way.