what the calvinists termed the 'invisible church,' the Body of Christ at any given time, on earth...made up of genuine converts...
-sigh- church never 'worked out' for me. Presbyterian, church politics I think. introduced to that old time Pentecostal religion...
more of the same, plus anti-intellectualism, authoritarianism, and what seems to me to be some blatantly un-Scriptural beliefs and practices, some bordering upon folk magic territory.
-shrug- i never wanted perfection, honestly. but...a place that offered more than feel good sound bites and fried chicken would be nice. so would a place that will take believers where we/they are, but still follows Scripture on identifying and repenting of sin, sin patterns.
i was...heckled, by a bunch of people in the parking lot of a different, 'progressive and inclusive' Presby church. heckled in the parking lot of a conservative megachurch, now southern baptist. cant go back to the presby church i went to till age 14 or so. a) its been over 20 years and b) i never was a member of that community, never will be.
i come here to fellowship. i think i've been sharpened a bit, here...maybe more than i would in a real time church? i mean, its a free (religious) market...you don't like what church A is selling, check out churches b and c. the flip side of that is that churches do not seem to have the time or inclination to truly disciple their congregants...
which is what it is, i suppose. looking to Scripture...'many are called, few are chosen...' arrogantly enough (LOL), I do believe myself to be 'chosen,' mostly because of His work in my life these past 8 years. so...
i think back, to sunday school...where are they now? who are they now? few believers. lots of middle and upper class families, so lots of 'success' stories. i was a failure, long story...that was kind of scripted, too (born working class, labeled, etc.), but...ok. 8 years in, my redemption...seems to rub a lot of people the wrong way, and...
rambling. lots of people cannot 'do church,' maybe its always been this way? the puritans had their occasional witch hunts, shunning people for adultery or divorce (rare, but did happen now and then), and now...
? my attempts at 'doing church' ended in rejection, without fail. i look in the mirror...36, healthy, normal. im surprisingly well dressed, these days. im not the down and out reject i was even 3, 5 years ago...
the cold shoulder remains, for different reasons. why bother? i get that from society, at large. i doubt I'm the only one.