Youve failed to see the bigger pictures, & you've chosen instead to remain more of a follower than an independent thinker
What are the bigger pictures you speak of? Could it be seeking other gods through a heretical new age enlightenment movement?
There are no independent thinkers who follow the carnal thoughts of their mind when it comes to Christianity. We are followers of Christ for what He has already taught over 2000 years ago as the word of God never changes, but man will twist it and manipulate it to say what they want it to. There are no independent thinkers as all truths come by the Holy Spirit of God in unison of the word of God teaching us all truths, John 14:26.