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Hatuey
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I am 35 now, when I was 22 I considered myself and atheist; I did much research into all things related to faith. I went around trying to disprove Jesus' existence and God's. I tried to convince people they were of extraordinary stupidity to believe in God and Jesus. I was harsh.
One day the thought popped into my head that perhaps the reason I have never known God is because I never actually gave Him the chance.
So I went to church, thought it was all right, wasn't for me.
3 weeks later, through a series of circumstances, I found myself strongly desiring to go back, though I knew not what for, for I had never known anything about a personal relationship with God where you actually hear Him or feel Him.
So I went, and I surrendered myself to God, reaching out for Him during worship, though, again, I had no idea what I was doing. God's Holy Spirit came into the room like a flash flood of majesty and love. I burst into tears and crumpled to the floor, weeping in His presence. I did not need anyone to tell me He was there. I repented of wasting my life up to that point and apologized for my efforts to hurt others' faith in Him and Jesus. I had never known love like His. Nothing was even close.
It seemed to go on for a very long time. Later that night I had a dream with the Father and then another with Jesus Himself. 2 days later I committed to follow Jesus forever, and I was saved.
My grandfather, who was an atheist until about 2 hours before he died and went to Heaven, praise God, had similar things to say when I first tried to bring him to Christ, trusting in man's arguments and unwilling to let God show him the Truth. But in the end, He received Jesus.
Why waste your life in some lie, why not give the Father the chance to answer your questions somehow. Saying, "Father, I return to you, and there are some questions I have, things that on the surface don't seem to add up, but I know You are the Truth, so please lead me into having these questions answered, and I believe I receive the answers now in Jesus' name, thank You."
Your story sounds very familiar. What god belief might you have if you were raised in a society 3,000 years ago with a different god belief than the society in which you were raised that believes in the god you currently believe in? I reject your god for the exact same reason that you AND ME reject all other gods.